Trying not to clip my own wings (oh, and a recipe for high protein flax bread. why not?)

It's 1776, and I say to you, "One day a rectangular thing called a 'display screen' will float from my living room wall and show me colorful moving pictures of the world. People will talk to me and the display will be called a 'plasma' display. The display will work because of a solution that consists of millions of phosphor-coated miniature glass bubbles containing plasma. An electric current will flow through the display screen, causing certain plasma-containing bubbles to emit ultraviolet rays, triggering the phosphor coating to produce the proper color (red, green or blue). That's how I will watch pictures on the wall in my home." Remember, it's 1776, oh and then I tell you that "I will write about this topic, on a thing called a 'laptop' which has another type of display, and a thing called a 'keyboard' in which I can communicate with the world and watch these moving pictures in my very own lap, while on my couch."

(The picture is Abigail Adams. In 1776, she was fighting for women getting the right to vote, get an education and not be treated like second class citizens. Had she not been having to fight for archaic bullshit that seems like basic humanity, she might have been dreaming of a plasma tv)

This idea probably would have landed like a fart in church... 1776, a time when the Declaration of Independence was drafted in ink and electricity wasn't due to fully hit the suburbs of wealthy industrial countries until the early 1900s- 125 years later. 100 years later, I'm watching my old school plasma tv and typing this on my laptop. So what's my point? My point is that the unimaginable must be, and is always possible. Had I told you about my plasma tv in 1776, you would have told me to fuck off, in a slightly British accent you may have said, "Please do fuck off." I would have felt dismayed, because it was only some intuition and a dream I had, a slight glimpse of possibility, but nothing close to reality of a modern 1776 lifestyle. That kind of dismay sucks and is present now- everywhere. You've been there-- shot down by your own fear, or by another. Hey, don't misunderstand me I'm not some magical thinking, cupcakes and rainbows dreamer. As proof, I worked at UCLA for many years in a scientific research program, and we conducted blockbuster, big money science-- no cutsie pseudo science. So I'm the first person to fall prey to, and advocate, what's called healthy skepticism. I think skepticism is very important for survival. So much so that I openly offer a YouTube video to teach you how to be a skeptic.



All that said, why am I writing about this topic? It's because at any given moment, I can fall prey to my own personal skepticism (read: self-doubt), and my own fears about possibilities. I'm not trying to invent a plasma television, I'm just trying to invent a yummier high protein bread, have a little faith in my own goals (which I've got a laundry list of) and not clip my own wings. I've come to think lately, that for reaching some of my goals I'm just going to shut the skeptic off. I'm trying not to clip my own wings, but today was tougher than others. Rather than fully immersing myself in finishing a task for a big (hush hush) opportunity I've received, I watched 17 Again on Cinemax and gave myself a headache. It was only a few hours of my mostly productive day, but it was the few hours delegated to the most important thing of my day. If you know me, you know that I've been trained to call this Upper Limiting (it's a form of self-sabotage...to learn about this very helpful concept check out Gay Hendricks). For now, for tonight, I'm done with it! Because the miracle plasma tv exists, so do my dreams.

As for my recent dream... as promised, yummy low carb bread... dreams do come true. You can make sandwiches with this bread, and if you add a bit of cinnamon and sweetener, it makes some damn good low carb french toast. For serious, people.

High Protein Flax Bread

(189 calories per serving, 7g carbs, 10g protein)

DRY INGREDIENTS
2 Cups Organic Golden Flax Meal
1/4 Cup Natural Flavored (unsweetened) Whey Protein Powder (cold processed, grass finished is best)
1 Teaspoon Sea Salt
1 Tablespoon Organic Baking Powder
(Optional 2 tsp of Sweet Tree Coconut Palm Sugar for sweeter uses, like French Toast)
(Optional herbs like Garlic Powder, Thyme, Rosemary for savory uses, like BLT sandwich)

WET INGREDIENTS
1/4 Cup Melted Extra Virgin, Cold Pressed Coconut Oil
1/4 Cup Water
4 Beaten Eggs

PREHEAT OVEN TO 350. Put parchment on a baking sheet. Mix dry ingredients thoroughly. Add wet ingredients to dry, and combine well. Let mixture rest for a few minutes to thicken, and for flax meal to absorb wet ingredients. Pour batter onto pan, spread out and evenly away from the center of pan. Batter should not touch sides of pan, but you can experiment with your own pan.

Bake for about 20 minutes, until the bread springs back when you touch the top, or when the edges are brown.Cool and cut into slices. The result is a pan style flat bread, approx 3/4 of an inch.